I figured out what I’m missing. I figured out what we’ve lost.
That bond you feel with very few people, or at least that’s how I am. I barely connect with anyone. And now I don’t have that at all anymore.
I’ve been best friends with this girl for over two years now, but it really feels like we’ve just been drifting apart for the last year or so. I just don’t feel that connection to her anymore, which is probably a good thing. I got too attached to the wrong person. It’s always the wrong person.
I need someone. I think I need someone that may not even exist. And that is the most terrifying part.